German Results XD

German kind of took over my life at the end there so no blogging for me XD I barely passed I got what's called a conditional pass (otherwise known as a D or 54%). It means I passed but I can't take anymore German classes, horrible I know XP, and if it was a music class I would have had to take it again. The only thing I care about though is that I passed, it counted towards my degree and now I can focus on Korean again XD
The other thing that has been taking over my life is Winx Club XD Yes I mean the Italian anime that targets 8 year olds XP I got a friend totally hooked *yay me* and we've been marathoning it all. We're nearly done only 4 more episodes of season 4 left which means we've watched almost 4 seasons at 26 episodes each and 2 movies in the span of 2 weeks ... yeah we kind of spent 3 or 4 days just watching Winx Club, it was amazing ngl. I hadn't watched it in about a year so it's been fun watching it all again and I've never had a friend into Winx Club so now I have someone I can spazz to about new Winx news and all the pretty contained in that awesome show. We have such clothing envy over everything in that show. It's all so gorgeous and sparkly and amazing it makes me eyes super happy XD

*SYTYCD time XD yay for more happy eyes*

German Project Results & Pet Peeves

I presented my oral assignment on Tuesday and got my results this morning and the mark is ........... 80%!!!!! Good thing I listened to myself with this and didn't give in to silly worries. This is one of those many times that I wish Jiyong oppa had Twitter so I could thank him but alas the YG family doesn't really believe in Twitter T.T I hope that my presentation got some people interested in Kpop and Jiyong oppa specifically but I'm not going to hold my breathe on that, I know how North American people are. My prof seemed surprised that my pronunciation was so good. That could have something to do with the facts that I'm never in class and when I am I rarely talk. It always amuses me how people are so surprised by my accent in foreign languages being so good because I don't even notice anymore. I'm always surprised by how bad most peoples accents are. It's odd to me that they can't hear that they're not saying things right because I've never had any trouble with speaking in foreign languages. Actually learning the languages however is a nightmare because most grammar is super hard for me to memorize, especially Romantic languages, and it takes a lot for me to remember vocabulary unless I hear it in songs or dramas like Korean and Japanese.
That leads me into the other thing I wanted to talk about .... pet peeves. I think I have more pet peeves than most people but I'm also very passive aggressive about them so it's not usually an issue. One is loud people. I can't stand loud people and I always have. It could be because of the migraines so I'm more sensitive to sound than most people but loud people just drive me up the wall. I can't understand why they can't control the volume of their voice. It also amazes me that some girls seem to think that leggings are the same as pants. They're not. At all. It's always people who are unattractive and/or don't have the body to be wearing leggings as pants even if that was ok. I don't get it, I really don't. Leggings are what you wear under dresses/skirts/long T-shirts etc, they are not a replacement for pants. We can see everything when you wear just leggings from underwear to a lack of and it's repulsive really it is. I'm getting angry just thinking about this so I'm going to stop before I say something I'll regret.

*German Final on Monday so I should probably start reviewing T.T*

JYP Audition

Now that I'm sane enough to talk about this rationally I'll make my post. Needless to say the audition did not go the way I wanted it to. Not that it went awful by any means, actually looking at it from a sane angle it went really well for a first audition. I forgot a word but recovered quickly and smoothly which is more than I can say for most people. I was stopped before the chorus so they didn't get to hear what I can do but it wasn't something I could control so I'm trying not to dwell on it. My skin and hair cooperated and my outfit was super cute so I'm happy with how I looked for it which is more than I can say for some singing things I've done. There were tons of people there I would guess over 500 and there were more coming in when I left around noon. They were very ... efficient. In the information we were giving about preparation it said 1 minute which I thought was short but fair. We definitely did not get a minute. I sang a verse which is around 30 seconds, some singers got less, one guy got around 45 seconds. The dancers got way less time than the singers, they got 15 maybe 20 seconds. I felt so bad watching them because they started and then before they had time to do anything they were stopped. It was awful to watch. The first guy in my group totally choked which made me more nervous and I can't even imagine how he felt. We had to stand at the side behind this tape line during the performance before ours which was stressful, my hands were shaking. If we weren't performing or waiting to perform we were sitting in chairs at the side watching everyone. They made the entire experience as stressful as possible so I was very happy to have a friend with me the whole time, except when I was in the room auditioning. I'm glad I did it and at the very least I've had the experience and I know how to prepare better for next year. I wish it had gone better but it went well enough.

*got to get back to German and catch up because I am ridiculously behind*

German Project

Every language course here at McGill requires you to do an oral presentation at the end of the year or semester, depending on wether you take intensive or not. I hate oral presentations. Hate, hate, hate them. I get this nervous laugh and talk way too fast. I'm thinking of doing my presentation on JiYong but it just seems so weird to talk about some guy that nobody will know. I made a video mixing the MV's from his solo album, which looks amazing and I'm so proud of it, but I'm not sure what my classmates, who I never talk to, will think of the random Korean music in German class. I'm not planning on playing any music because it's way too distracting, especially for me >.<, also because I'm supposed to talk for the whole time not have them listen to a 3 minute song for half of the presentation. I'm not sure what I'm going to talk about if I do talk about JiYong though. Obviously I'll talk about the basics like his age, his family, Big Bang, his composing etc, but I'm not sure that that will fill the time. I'll probably talk about Gaho a little bit but that's 2 maybe 3 sentences. I also don't know very much about his family because he doesn't talk about them ... ever. I don't really want to talk about his lawsuit and the issues with all of that, nor do I want to talk a lot about Big Bang mainly because the video that will be playing only has Ji in it. I guess I can talk a little about how he works and how much of a perfectionist he is ... not sure I'll mention his obsession with cleanliness because that would be so weird to explain how I know so much about his personality. Ugh I hate oral presentations T.T

*nearly done season 2 of Sanctuary ... yeah I'm watching this show way too fast.*

It's Been So Long T.T

Wah it's been forever since I made a post T.T I've been swamped with homework for German and been extremely sick with migraines and dizzy spells so computers are not my best friends right now. However I'm going to get back into this because it's important to me to write things down and go through my thoughts.
My audition is coming up >.< Freaking out massively of course but I'm also extremely excited. I'm still wavering between two songs but everyone likes one over the other so I'll probably do that one. (I really like the IU song though T.T) I decided to change from a black and pink outfit to a white and pink one for a more innocent, cute look rather than the club look that I thought the black brought to the outfit. I was so worried my white shoes weren't going to come in on time but thankfully they came in yesterday. (I leave tomorrow O.o) I'll have to work on German while I'm in Toronto though, probably while I'm at the audition too. OTL
* On a side note but still in the JYP vein the teaser for 2PM's comeback came out last night and it looks so good XD The guys all look great, as does the video even though it's just a club concept and nothing new and innovative. The song sounds good too, again not incredibly innovative from what was in the teaser but it's upbeat and has good beats and bass and I don't always need innovative music, Ji can supply that for me XD
I've massively gotten into a Canadian T.V. show called Sanctuary. It's all about a world where people and animals have abilities and look different and finding out about them, similar to Fringe before the war between worlds thing that I found so annoying. Of course there's a cute guy, and a nerdy guy so my male quota is fulfilled but there's also tons of English accents which makes me supremely happy. XD I'm already halfway through the second season of 3 and I've only been watching it a couple of days. *watching it way too much XP* It's amazing so far so I hope it stays that way and doesn't follow Fringe into the realms of over-complicated plot.
The last thing I want to write down is about my mother. I can't remember if I've mentioned my mother on here before but if I haven't I'll give a little intro. My relationship with my mother isn't amazing to say the least. I'm an only child and she's always been very protective of me and kept me very sheltered. I always did what she wanted, the big things not always the little things, because I didn't have any reason not to, I was fine with singing opera and doing ballet and all the things she wanted me to do. However now that I'm 6 hours away and finding things that I love that she doesn't approve of she's having trouble letting me go enough to decide things for myself. This year I've barely been home and I almost never talk to her on the phone, partly because I don't want to but also because I don't really have the time. She sends me e-mails where the title is the question she wants to ask so that I can't not see it. Annoying but effective. -.-' Recently she's been asking me to come home for a bit or she wants to come here for some vacation time, I said I didn't know what she would do here and the only things she could come up with were food and a bug garden. -.-' No way I'm going to a bug garden, I hate bugs. *shudders* Basically I'm going to try to convince her that I'll go back home for a few days and then come back here and start working. Hopefully she'll agree and get her nagging for awhile done with. It would be nice to see my dad and my dogs though, and my mom don't get me wrong I love her but we don't see eye to eye and I'm sick of fighting with her, maybe once she learns how to accept me and show love in an emotional way and not a material way I'll want to see her more often.

*Going to do German homework now and watch some more Sanctuary, the noise helps me focus I can't do anything in pure quiet I need background noise XP*

Travis Wall ^.^

I haven't been feeling well thanks to the massive thunderstorm that is passing over so I didn't post yesterday. I was so ill I forgot that So You Think You Can Dance was on. If that doesn't show how awful I've been feeling I don't know what would. So I rectified this grievous mistake today and Travis has stolen my heart again. He is the best thing that has ever come out of SYTYCD. I don't even remember how many seasons ago he competed but he was my favourite and he didn't win which broke my heart but he's been back as a choreographer for at least two seasons now and he is even more amazing than ever. He's choreographed quite a few dances that were so gorgeous and had so much emotion in them that I have broken down in tears. He choreographed one of the dances for the callbacks in Las Vegas this season of SYTYCD and the couple seconds I saw of it I had tears running down my face. I don't even know the story behind it and I didn't see very much of it but it was so amazing what I did see. I cannot wait to see what he does this season because he is unbelievable. I do know that he choreographs a dance for the top 20 show and that there are two Sonya Tayeh dances in the top 20 show as well. (one of my other epic favourite choreographers, her dances are so unique and amazing to watch I can't even put it into words) I am so excited for this season and there are a number of amazing dancers in the top 20. (although one of my favourites got cut which sucks T.T I'm hoping since she's really young she'll come back again)

*going to Imadake again tomorrow and the possibility of taking pictures is very high ^.^*

X-Men First Class

Dragged myself to the theatre to see this since I'd already bought tickets and I did actually want to see it. It was good. Not amazing or awful, just good. Some of the special effects were really bad and I'm not sure if it was because they were 3D effects that don't work in 2D but they really fell short. The acting was good, though I'm a huge James McAvoy fan so anything he does is gold to me. The best part of X-Men movies is the mutants of course and this movie didn't disappoint. There were a few mutations that stood out, like Angel and Banshee, but they were all very cool and very well done. Some of the music choices left much to be desired, such as when the mutants come in to save the day the "heroic" music was way over the top. My other major issue was the makeup for Beast. Since they had a point of reference from the third movie they should have kept the fur and mouth prosthetic the same. The prosthetic in this movie barely moved and seemed so awkward on the actor where the previous one did not. I loved the 5 second, 2 word cameos from Wolverine and the original Mystique they were hilarious and extremely well timed. Wolverines was made all the more funny with James' reaction to being cussed out by Hugh Jackman. All in all I liked the movie and will add it to my collection, gotta catch 'em all XD but my favourites will stay the original trilogy especially the third movie because the story, characters, actors, music, special effects etc all came together perfectly in that movie. <333

*forcing myself to study German even though my head feels like an elephant is dancing in it*

Ugh Migraines T.T

Migraines are hard to explain to anyone who hasn't had them, which is most people to be honest even if they think they have most of the time it's just a bad headache. I get migraines from certain foods such as deli meat and the weather. When there's rain coming I know and usually I can predict what day it's going to come on better than the weather people, it's happened that I was right and they were off by two days. XD I also get these weird blackouts where I lose vision and get dizzy for a few minutes, those are worse than migraines so luckily they aren't as frequent. You know when you stand up really quickly and you get a headrush??? It's like that only it can happen any time and I get way more dizzy. I don't know what it is about the weather right now but I haven't had a migraine free day in a month or so and my dizzy spells are getting more frequent too, I had three today alone. I hate that this post is just about me feeling crappy but honestly all I did today was sit and try to eat. I didn't go to class because I couldn't walk to the front door so walking to the German building was out of the question. I'm hoping I feel better tomorrow so I don't miss anymore class because German is brutal even without being behind in homework and missing class. I'm going to try to do some homework and study now. Wish me luck ^.^

*I wish the people across the street would turn down their music. Bad music and migraines do not mix -.-'*

Homework T.T

I didn't post yesterday because all I've done since I've gotten home is massive amounts of German homework ... and sleep ... I slept a lot. XD I've also been watching Camelot because I need to either watch TV shows/movies or listen to music or I can't focus on my work. I don't know what it is but way too many shows that I've been watching lately have tons of naked women. I don't need or want to see that thanks very much. My friends think it'a hilarious of course and mock me every time a new show starts to have naked people and I start to get freaked out. So one half of what I watch has way too much nudity but surprising plot lines and genres I like and the other half is Asian so there's no nudity at all and most of it's super predictable. I'm not sure which I prefer to be honest. I watch a ton of Korean and Japanese dramas and I love them and I love their predictability, it makes watching them comfortable. Most of the Western shows I watch are either shows I've been watching for a long time (Criminal Minds, Amazing Race, Grey's Anatomy etc) or they're new and are set in interesting time periods (Game of Thrones and Camelot). The newer ones tend to have more naked people than the older ones but how can I resist a show about Camelot?? I love the legends of Arthur and his knights. Oh well I'll just have to put up with it I guess. At least I have my Korean dramas for the cute, innocent love where hugging is a huge step. <33333

*ugh back to homework T.T*

I Didn't Forget!!! Really I Didn't T.T

I know this is late and will say that I missed a day but honestly I didn't. I'm at a friends place and just didn't go on the internet until now. We've been watching movies like Stardust (she's hooked ㅋㅋㅋ), Tarzan and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I spent most of the last two cutting and editing together my 권 지용 video for my German presentation, it'll be a good distraction for my classmates so I won't be as nervous plus I'll know exactly how much time I need to talk because my video is almost the maximum amount of time I'm allowed. I've never done any video editing or anything to do with creating art on a computer and I was so scared but it actually looks really good and some of my transitions were genius if I do say so myself. *proud* I edited together bits and pieces from all of his MV's from his solo album because he looks the best there, no weird afro or mohawk -.-' and also because they are gorgeous MV's, so artistic and interesting to watch. I didn't realize how hard it was going to be but now that I've done one I really like it. If I can find a music course where I do video or music editing I'll probably take it because it's so precise and amazingly fulfilling. *going to look for a course now >.<*

I Think I'm In Love

As I posted earlier today I went to Imadake and it was amazing. The food was unbelievable and so tasty <3333 My favourites would have to be the Okonomiyaki and the smoked salmon canapes. I could not believe how good they were. Now that I've gone and had the food I do regret not taking pictures so next time no matter how embarrassed I will be I will bring a camera and take pictures. My only issue with it was that we weren't greeted or sent off in Japanese they spoke to us all in English, which I understand because we're white but I speak decent enough Japanese that it would have been nice to use it. A friend and I had some sake as well, not enough to affect either of us at all though just to have it with our food. I've heard a lot of things about another similar restaurant called Kazu but I wanted traditional Japanese street food and Imadake totally delivers. I like that it's loud and dark inside because it really adds to the feel of being in a pub or a street stall late at night. I'd love to go again with a lot of people and try way more items, we only had Okonomiyaki, Karaage, Ebi Tempura, Ramen, Smoked Salmon Canapes and Sake which came out to less than $20 per person and we shared everything. Imadake was amazing and I will definitely be going back >.<

*going to watch SYTYCD now XD*

So You Think You Can Dance XD

I didn't express my love for this show last week because I didn't have a blog yet so I'm going to express my huge love for it today <3 I used to dance, ballet and baroque and a little jazz, and I've always loved watching dancing especially watching as many different kinds of dance as possible, much like how I listen to music. This show was introduced to me by my dancer friends in season 2 so something like 4 or 5 years ago I think and I've loved it and watched it religiously since. I love the new format of having the competitors dance with previous "all-stars" who only dance in their genre because it makes them so much better and nobody can blame it on the partner. I am so excited to see what the choreographers do this year, especially Mia, Wade and Travis because they do the most amazing things. Mia and Travis have had a couple dances where I just sit there and cry watching them. The auditionees this year look really talented too so I'm excited to see how they do throughout the season. I wish they didn't show so many of the disillusioned, crazy people though because even though it's amusing some of them just scare me. I've never really had any respect for people who aren't good at something but they think they are and the people around them tell them they are. I'm a decent dancer but I'm not trying out for things like this I know what I'm good at because of solid evidence not just what people say, though it's always nice to have someone say you're good at something of course. It's why I don't watch American Idol or other singing competitions because the bad singers who think they're amazing just drive me nuts. It's bearable with dance because it's not my medium but with singing which I've worked so hard on for so long it's just frustrating and infuriating. Stopping my rant now and going to watch the amazing that will be tonight's episode of SYTYCD >.<

*I'll do my German homework after I promise xp*

**there's an amazing Broadway dancer who got a ticket to Vegas I really hope he does well because he's so talented and he has an amazing personality, there are so many amazing dancers this season I'm so stoked XD**

Imadake ^.^

I am so ridiculously excited to go to Imadake tomorrow. A friend and I went on the weekend to see their menu and hours but we were two or three hours early and the chefs were doing prep still. It's an open kitchen so I could see them cutting up the samgyupsal etc. The door was unlocked and I didn't realize how early we were and of course my friend made me go in by myself -.-' She said "You're tiny and cute they'll like you better." Thanks a lot hunn -.- So I went in and they were so amazingly nice. When I asked for a menu three guys pointed them out and one came over and showed me the specials and the ramen menu etc. I could not believe how nice they were especially because I was interrupting prep which is such a huge no-no. When we left I said arigatougozaimasu and they all seemed so impressed, though that could have been because it was the only Japanese I said all I could think of was Korean. *fail Hyo massive fail* It's labelled as a Japanese pub but that's more because they specialize in street stall food like Takoyaki, Ramen, Okonomiyaki etc. I'll do a "review" after I go. Hopefully it will just be me saying how amazing all the food was. No pictures though because I can't bring myself to bring a camera and take pictures of food I would be so embarrassed >.<

Going to the library now to do German homework ... and download dramas ... mostly to download dramas ^.^

JYP Audition Prep

I feel like I've been preparing for this audition for forever and yet I still don't feel ready. I probably won't feel ready even on the day of no matter what the people around me say. I have my song memorized, not that I'm sure it's the right song. I have my outfit all ready and I know where I'm going to be staying, thank God for my awesome aunt and amazing friends. I'm still not sure how much makeup I'm going to wear, probably not much because I don't want to cover up my face and also because heavy makeup isn't popular in Asia nor is it appropriate for an audition. I'm hoping my skin and hair decide to cooperate on the day of or all I'm going to be worrying about is how I look -.-'

Healthy Living

Ever since I came to university I stopped caring what I ate and I never exercised and now that I care again it is so hard to break the bad habits. I've started skipping rope and once my pool is fixed I'll probably start swimming once in a while but my main problem is constantly craving junk food. I've started trying to eat a large breakfast, medium lunch and small dinner with no grains after 7:30 but once it hits 9:00 all I want is pizza, burgers, chips etc. I'm drinking a ton of water too somewhere around 3 Litres a day. I didn't realize how hard it was to drink that much water O.O I have to start sleeping more that will be a big help too because my body will have the time to digest everything fully. I started doing all this just for my JYP audition but now it's super important to me just so I can feel better about myself again. I always had a really nice dancer's body before university but once I stopped, for medical and personal reasons, I was never comfortable with my body. I always wore sweatshirts even in the middle of summer, still do actually because I'm still not 100% about myself. It doesn't help that my mom who was always on the bigger side lost a ton of weight and constantly criticized me about my weight. She also loves getting me really tight fitting clothes which not only do I not look good in anymore I don't actually like anyways. Not that I could possibly tell her that I like cute, loose, Asian-esque clothes with things like skulls and flowers etc -.-'

Going to get some of that much needed sleep =.=

Kang Daesung Car Accident

Instead of going through different posts and reading other people's comments and getting all pissed off like I usually do I'm just going to write a blog post and wait for the final official police report to come out. There are a few conflicting stories but the main gist is is that Daesung may or may not have hit a motorcyclist that may or may not have died. If he didn't hit the person he may have hit the taxi cab that had stopped to help the motorcyclist who had been hit in a previous hit-and-run. Notice all the maybes??? That's because nobody actually knows yet and people are already talking about him getting a severe sentence and YG covering up everything. I realize a man may or may not be dead and I feel awful for him and his family but as I have no other information into his life and who he is that's really all I can say. Daesung on the other hand, I've been a fan of his for 3 years and I know way more about him. He wasn't under the influence of anything while driving so it was literally just an accident. The most he would get if the man dies would be constructive manslaughter, implying that the Daesung was guilty of killing the man but did not plan to do so and was not under any influence when he did so. However from what I'm reading Daesung didn't break any laws when he hit "somebody, either person or taxi etc"and that means that he cannot be convicted of constructive manslaughter either. He didn't run any red lights and he wasn't speeding, the car just didn't stop as quickly as he needed it to. Again I feel awful for the motorcyclist who may or may not have died and even if he is just injured it's still awful but I don't want Daesung to be persecuted just because he is famous. Nothing that I'm seeing shows him doing anything wrong to be honest and if a report comes out that changes my mind then this post was wrong but right now it's all I can think with the facts I've been given. Hopefully everything will turn out okay for everyone involved. Daesung Fighting <3

Edit #1: The motorcyclist has been pronounced dead which is so sad and my thoughts go out to his family.

Alex Pettyfer

Not to sound like some creepy pre-teen girl, like most of the comments on YouTube were from, but I really like this guy. He's a good actor and he's really attractive and clearly confident with himself. I saw him in Beastly mainly because I love the Beauty and the Beast story, not to mention all the classic Disney movies and original fairy tales. He was actually surprisingly good in it. I especially like the way he uses his voice to express things and as he has a gorgeous timbre to his voice it's a good choice of acting styles. I'm not 100% sold on him as Jace from The Mortal Instruments yet but he would be a perfect Peeta. *crying at the destruction that has been done on the movie for The Hunger Games ㅠ.ㅠ* I'll watch I Am Number Four today or tomorrow and see how he is in that but so far I like him. I watched some interviews too and he seems super down-to-earth and sweet. Plus he's English with that hot British accent so how could you go wrong XD

Skincare T.T

I never really had issues with my skin until I came to university 3 years ago and now it's a constant battle. I finally discovered LUSH and so far their products have been really good we'll see if they have the long-term effects I'm looking for. The face masks were so weird when I first saw them though. I watch a lot of Korean dramas and Korean facial masks are paper soaked in different vitamins and minerals that you put right on your face and they have holes for your mouth, nose and eyes. When I saw the face masks here and realized I had to spread this weird gunky stuff on my face I swear my eyes went O.O Now I'm used to it but I'd love to try Korean facial masks too and I found a store today that sells them and I'm super excited to try them soon. The store also sells BB Cream which is a kind of foundation and I have an awful time with foundation. I'm really pale and my skin keeps getting paler all the time so my foundation is constantly too dark. I'm going to try some BB Cream and hopefully I'll find something that will work for me.

"HyoSun stop procrastinating and finish your German homework" ... right homework I should do that XD

Background T.T

I'm trying to find a Sakura background but seeing as I really should finish my German homework before class tomorrow I have to stop my search. I'll leave this pretty lily up for now seeing as it's the right colour and all XD I was trying to get my wallpapers of Kwon JiYong (G-Dragon) to work but they were too small so they looked super weird and the one I really like from his Heartbreaker album was too white and the text went right over the picture so that was a no-go as well. Oh well I'll just keep looking and trying things I'm sure I'll find the perfect background at some point. As Savannah from Hellcats always says "Positive outcomes only!!" (Yes I watch the Hellcats I watch tons of TV while I do my homework and I actually really like watching competitive cheerleading)

My First Actual Blog ^.^

Instead of having a personal blog that only I can read I decided to switch to a public blog that anyone can read. Especially because of my JYP audition coming up and going into my fourth year at McGill University before I pack up my life and move to Seoul, South Korea. A little bit about myself hmm .... I'm 21 (as of 5 days ago!!) and currently completing my third year at McGill for classical vocal performance (the long way of saying I study singing opera lol). I'm finally realizing what it is I want for myself and not just doing what my family wants for me and what people say I should be doing. Of course if what I want actually happens my family (cough*mother*cough) will freak out but it's what I want. What I want most of all is to be accepted by a large agency in Seoul, such as YG or JYP, and sing all kinds of music from kpop to musical theatre to opera and everything in between. How greedy am I?? Luckily I have tons of friends here that are fully supporting me and a couple people back home who are being fantastic and keeping all this from my family. I'm not going to write my birth name here because Song HyoSun is who I really am and that's what this blog is for. I'm going to try and do this every day but school will probably get in the way ㅠ.ㅠ Still I'll try XD