JYP Audition Prep

I feel like I've been preparing for this audition for forever and yet I still don't feel ready. I probably won't feel ready even on the day of no matter what the people around me say. I have my song memorized, not that I'm sure it's the right song. I have my outfit all ready and I know where I'm going to be staying, thank God for my awesome aunt and amazing friends. I'm still not sure how much makeup I'm going to wear, probably not much because I don't want to cover up my face and also because heavy makeup isn't popular in Asia nor is it appropriate for an audition. I'm hoping my skin and hair decide to cooperate on the day of or all I'm going to be worrying about is how I look -.-'

Healthy Living

Ever since I came to university I stopped caring what I ate and I never exercised and now that I care again it is so hard to break the bad habits. I've started skipping rope and once my pool is fixed I'll probably start swimming once in a while but my main problem is constantly craving junk food. I've started trying to eat a large breakfast, medium lunch and small dinner with no grains after 7:30 but once it hits 9:00 all I want is pizza, burgers, chips etc. I'm drinking a ton of water too somewhere around 3 Litres a day. I didn't realize how hard it was to drink that much water O.O I have to start sleeping more that will be a big help too because my body will have the time to digest everything fully. I started doing all this just for my JYP audition but now it's super important to me just so I can feel better about myself again. I always had a really nice dancer's body before university but once I stopped, for medical and personal reasons, I was never comfortable with my body. I always wore sweatshirts even in the middle of summer, still do actually because I'm still not 100% about myself. It doesn't help that my mom who was always on the bigger side lost a ton of weight and constantly criticized me about my weight. She also loves getting me really tight fitting clothes which not only do I not look good in anymore I don't actually like anyways. Not that I could possibly tell her that I like cute, loose, Asian-esque clothes with things like skulls and flowers etc -.-'

Going to get some of that much needed sleep =.=

Kang Daesung Car Accident

Instead of going through different posts and reading other people's comments and getting all pissed off like I usually do I'm just going to write a blog post and wait for the final official police report to come out. There are a few conflicting stories but the main gist is is that Daesung may or may not have hit a motorcyclist that may or may not have died. If he didn't hit the person he may have hit the taxi cab that had stopped to help the motorcyclist who had been hit in a previous hit-and-run. Notice all the maybes??? That's because nobody actually knows yet and people are already talking about him getting a severe sentence and YG covering up everything. I realize a man may or may not be dead and I feel awful for him and his family but as I have no other information into his life and who he is that's really all I can say. Daesung on the other hand, I've been a fan of his for 3 years and I know way more about him. He wasn't under the influence of anything while driving so it was literally just an accident. The most he would get if the man dies would be constructive manslaughter, implying that the Daesung was guilty of killing the man but did not plan to do so and was not under any influence when he did so. However from what I'm reading Daesung didn't break any laws when he hit "somebody, either person or taxi etc"and that means that he cannot be convicted of constructive manslaughter either. He didn't run any red lights and he wasn't speeding, the car just didn't stop as quickly as he needed it to. Again I feel awful for the motorcyclist who may or may not have died and even if he is just injured it's still awful but I don't want Daesung to be persecuted just because he is famous. Nothing that I'm seeing shows him doing anything wrong to be honest and if a report comes out that changes my mind then this post was wrong but right now it's all I can think with the facts I've been given. Hopefully everything will turn out okay for everyone involved. Daesung Fighting <3

Edit #1: The motorcyclist has been pronounced dead which is so sad and my thoughts go out to his family.

Alex Pettyfer

Not to sound like some creepy pre-teen girl, like most of the comments on YouTube were from, but I really like this guy. He's a good actor and he's really attractive and clearly confident with himself. I saw him in Beastly mainly because I love the Beauty and the Beast story, not to mention all the classic Disney movies and original fairy tales. He was actually surprisingly good in it. I especially like the way he uses his voice to express things and as he has a gorgeous timbre to his voice it's a good choice of acting styles. I'm not 100% sold on him as Jace from The Mortal Instruments yet but he would be a perfect Peeta. *crying at the destruction that has been done on the movie for The Hunger Games ㅠ.ㅠ* I'll watch I Am Number Four today or tomorrow and see how he is in that but so far I like him. I watched some interviews too and he seems super down-to-earth and sweet. Plus he's English with that hot British accent so how could you go wrong XD

Skincare T.T

I never really had issues with my skin until I came to university 3 years ago and now it's a constant battle. I finally discovered LUSH and so far their products have been really good we'll see if they have the long-term effects I'm looking for. The face masks were so weird when I first saw them though. I watch a lot of Korean dramas and Korean facial masks are paper soaked in different vitamins and minerals that you put right on your face and they have holes for your mouth, nose and eyes. When I saw the face masks here and realized I had to spread this weird gunky stuff on my face I swear my eyes went O.O Now I'm used to it but I'd love to try Korean facial masks too and I found a store today that sells them and I'm super excited to try them soon. The store also sells BB Cream which is a kind of foundation and I have an awful time with foundation. I'm really pale and my skin keeps getting paler all the time so my foundation is constantly too dark. I'm going to try some BB Cream and hopefully I'll find something that will work for me.

"HyoSun stop procrastinating and finish your German homework" ... right homework I should do that XD

Background T.T

I'm trying to find a Sakura background but seeing as I really should finish my German homework before class tomorrow I have to stop my search. I'll leave this pretty lily up for now seeing as it's the right colour and all XD I was trying to get my wallpapers of Kwon JiYong (G-Dragon) to work but they were too small so they looked super weird and the one I really like from his Heartbreaker album was too white and the text went right over the picture so that was a no-go as well. Oh well I'll just keep looking and trying things I'm sure I'll find the perfect background at some point. As Savannah from Hellcats always says "Positive outcomes only!!" (Yes I watch the Hellcats I watch tons of TV while I do my homework and I actually really like watching competitive cheerleading)

My First Actual Blog ^.^

Instead of having a personal blog that only I can read I decided to switch to a public blog that anyone can read. Especially because of my JYP audition coming up and going into my fourth year at McGill University before I pack up my life and move to Seoul, South Korea. A little bit about myself hmm .... I'm 21 (as of 5 days ago!!) and currently completing my third year at McGill for classical vocal performance (the long way of saying I study singing opera lol). I'm finally realizing what it is I want for myself and not just doing what my family wants for me and what people say I should be doing. Of course if what I want actually happens my family (cough*mother*cough) will freak out but it's what I want. What I want most of all is to be accepted by a large agency in Seoul, such as YG or JYP, and sing all kinds of music from kpop to musical theatre to opera and everything in between. How greedy am I?? Luckily I have tons of friends here that are fully supporting me and a couple people back home who are being fantastic and keeping all this from my family. I'm not going to write my birth name here because Song HyoSun is who I really am and that's what this blog is for. I'm going to try and do this every day but school will probably get in the way ㅠ.ㅠ Still I'll try XD